I think I've absolutely lost it this time. I am having conversations in my head, and not only with my own voice, but with voices of friends, or acquaintances, or just random people! With just around 2 hours of sleep in over 24 hours now, I am trying to figure out why, when I shut my eyes, am I not lulled by the seductive voices of the sirens, the comforting arms of hypnos, and the wondrous visions of morpheus? Rather, I seem to be strangely fascinated enough by the clamor of voices in my head that, even with my eyes clenched shut, I am conscious, aware, and yet unable to break out of this almost palpable state of lucid dream.
So what IS the diagnosis of my condition? Am I really narrowing the verge of insanity? I asked a trusted friend and confidante for her opinion on the situation, and she said that I was stressing too much. And then it hit me. So is it stress then? No, it is lack thereof!
To understand this conclusion, I will briefly narrate the events of my day yesterday. I woke up exceptionally early (for me) at 10 a.m. and almost immediately decided to finish watching a movie that I had started the previous night. And then I saw another movie. After watching a couple TV game shows, I saw another movie, and then another. I saw a couple other shows, and then started watching another movie. I left this one half way and fell asleep at about 2 a.m. I woke up again around 4 a.m., and found that my brother had also woken up. So what did we decide to do? Well, of course... watch another movie! Now, if you've been counting, thats 5 movies and a couple TV shows. I should also point out that movies such as 'road trip', and especially our 4 a.m. blockbuster 'soapdish' would perhaps have the same cerebral impact on Albert Einstein as it would on Igor from 'young frankenstein'.
So while my body was technically awake all day (although it didn't do much work either, but just staying up takes its toll too), and my eyes were nearly burnt out, my brain had been sleeping all throughout. All it was needed to do was to receive visual input from my eyes, and receive hunger, thirst, or urination signals from my body. So when the time came to go to bed, my body lay in stillness because it was tired, and my eyes stayed shut because they were torched, but my brain refused to sleep. And with the lack of input from any other part of my body, my brain had to, well, entertain itself!
So looks like its another mystery solved. I haven't driven myself crazy yet. I don't have multiple personalities... I hope. And with all the thinking and reasoning, combined with the effort of writing this blog, I think my brain's exercised enough. So guess what's next? Nap time!!
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